what an evening!

The sky is blue..a deep intense blue..
And when I look up at it almost after a week time or so, the large expanse of it gives me a calming effect... n it always does, as if taking away all the worries from life...
the sight of wispy cottony white clouds, flowing freely..feels like letting your soul move along with it..
The soft breeze flowing.. touching your body, combing your hairs...
Sound of birds chirping , as if jussst for you...
a soft music playing in the back ...... only makes me say-"what an evening"!

I felt as if I was a football yesterday..
Somebody came and kicked me out of the stadium so far so that I couldn’t be located anymore.
And there I stood slouching against the wall, bewildered and confused..
As if God has just played a trick on me.. leaving all shattered ..now snapping fingers asking ‘oh, poor child! what’s so wrong’?

Something you sincerely waiting and wanting to do and in a fraction of time u loose it..u loose it all..u loose the spirit man!

But now,you cant just sit n moan. You have to be working it out. You lost it..yoU have to get that back!

INVINCIBLE HEPTAD!

I know I m late, should have posted this post by yesterday but..
I have become such a sloth
Who pseudo-work for 5 weekdays
Crawl the next 2 days
Curse the evening of Sundays
n feel blues every Monday..
Wo..it all rhymed! Yay !!

Every year the day of 15th August comes bringing fire in the hearts of many Indians,when the national anthem is orchestrated, those magical lyrics.. heart full of gratitude n respect towards motherland makes each one of us proud! And with our country finding its way to the list of Gold medal winners in the worlds biggest stage for sports, one would only be hopeful to see such fabulous stories of human achievements repeating itself for our Nation.

So, I was surfing music channels 15th morning .. when I paused to look at this video..i bursted into laughter that my sis came asking whats so funny is on? I pointed her t.v screen the song“ DES RANGEELA” from the movie Fanaa.

I know many don’t know this song like me, had naveen jindal not come up with his idea of organizing this competition at my college :(

For all those who don’t know Mr. Naveen jindal:

He heads a steel and power empire and is a champion polo player and a skeet shooter. He has also won a decade-long and a relentless court battle to secure the right of Indians to hoist the country’s flag everyday and not just on special occasions like Independence and Republic days. "The Indian flag does not just belong to the government or the bureaucracy, it belongs to every Indian.

The competition was to show your patriotic spirit by any means..n the prize money was too lucrative ..5000/- …we made a group of 7 n started sieving the best possible song which would fetch us the prize money..lots of picks..this song,that song..bla bla bla.. when finally we agreed to that Fanaa song..i never ever listened that song before,that was neetika’s sick idea(or prove me wrong..huh!).. I still curse her for that.. I guess coz I was all too enthu n gusto that I agreed to that deal..we had 2 days to prepare for it!!

Next morning..we 7 came to clg but no one attended even single class..reason? our oozing-patroitic-spirit..sat on the rock gardens..bunking zoo pracs, practiced the whole day n the next day.
The D day came, it was to happen in the Audi. the stage set, audience ready ..n judges impressed to see lots of young audience(coz usually the Audi was empty when events like this happen, bolly n western dance n music shows are always preferred by youth) ..okay, so we waited eagerly for our turn..the spirit of nationalism strong in our hearts..n we gave our shot..i rem we planned to add special effect to our song by making neetika splash red colors (some holi colors) while we sing to make the event more happening (ah! neetz looked a dumbfound jerk..) we started clapping ourselves while neetz did the coloring part..judges got into complex watching our spirit ,they too started bucking up, our faces enlightened, we sang louder..n funny part was that we had called out our fellow classmates to be among audience so as to cheer us up (actually to clap for us) awww!!..lolll…the whole Audi was enthralled,performance was splendiferous enough to win us that prize.. (all acc. to our fool minds, we actually made castles in the air)

After all that act, we sat in the audience to see rest performances..i rem one girl came n sang an awful patriotic song, we booed her in heart..(reason: our oozing spirit :P) invincible heptad! :D
Finally the show got over..then came the judgement time::::
2nd runner up is xyz
1st runner up is ...
(we, ecstatic,over-confident fools,believed that the prize only n lonely :P belong to us)
nnn the firsttt prize goes to ::::::::: the girl who sang that “awfull song”

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Embarrassed…dissed…mocked down…that as soon we received our consolation patriotic music CD prize, we left the Audi( we wanted to leave the Audi ASAP, but someone told us not to go)… we cracked into immense laughter outside.. laughing out really loud..n still after 1 n half year the moment is fresh in minds n makes us pull our jaws again..

Because in all honesty we are all crazy as hell and when we are around people it is a big act brought on by wanting to be accepted, n I do silly things around people Im super close with,but that was a public shame! Lol!!!

Its so cool to just sit in retrospection,n remember the good old college days!(not too old,mind you) ;)

~ Oblivion ~

Something is not clicking... I have this strong urge to scribble but something inside is eating away my spirits. let me try..
“Life isn’t a cake-walk...” As I grow I tend to understand the real crux behind this phrase. I remember I always had grievances about me being amateurish at times in taking decision past 5-6 years . Everybody beside me knowing their right, wrongs and stuff like that..and I used to scold myself for, being youngest at home therefore a spoilt child! But in my three years of graduation, I kind of metamorphosed, the child like, carefree (or careless) attitude is no more existing now with me as now I take every petty matter with ‘great’ concern (too much an adjective..!..) but truly. Obviously, I have grown old at least as per my 10th DOB certificate, n have lived two decades of my life that now I am referred a ‘changed-individual’ and I was pretty hunky-dory about that..

But why things don’t turn out the way you want?. Why I am having failed-plans these days?( may be I’ll stop planning things in advance) Why I am loosing things these days?(oh! My pen-drive, where on the earth you are? ) And heck! why am I expecting things for heavens sake?…………… I recall having made some policies in life that I planned to follow sincerely. One of among them was ‘not to expect’ but time and again; candidly, I forget my self-made policies…n I just goofed up again!

There are some people who refuse to learn from mistakes and I, for sure, was not one of them as I believed its only you who can be a lesson for yourself because people will say many things, you listen them but never follow.. ‘A man learn from his own mistakes’ I agree!

So, moral of the story is that, stop expecting, stop planning and be wary (order is random) BUT always get going!!

End of Vellapanti.. Ouch!!

The 2-month blessed vacation is almost over today and I left no chance to spend it in sheer vellapanti. I remember my senior asked me at orkut “so wat r u doin these days??” to which I replied “I was doing NOTHING” yesss, the word nothing typed in caps as if it was such a great task to perform! N when he again asked “tell me plz how to do NOTHING......... I have never done it earlier” I replied most shamelessly that “doing NOTHING is actually not everybody's cup of tea..its very difficult..only great persons can do it like me ;)”

Its okay u r into phd n all..i am still a student of lesser grade than you who gets holidays n can spend time in vellapanti..huh!! may be grapes-are-sour for you ;)

But when I think back I guess it wasn’t difficult either..one can spend daysss being vella until that vellaness reaches peakness to kick you out from your house as it did to me. I behaved variously in these 2-months..sometimes thinking too much sometimes nothing at all.as it is said “excess of everything is bad” ..proved right.

In these velle days, I ate, slept, jumped, ran, laughed, cried :P, t.v, movies (only2), read, wrote…etc etc..but Godji,please next time (if at all) I get such ample holidays keep something for me to do in b/w.

Somebody was sending guinea souls in heaven,somebody was dissecting calotes,somebody busy in end sem exams,somebody busy in meter-testing,somebody in summer- training,swimming,visiting hometown…etc etc..

But fine..it wasn’t bad either here ..i have been doing THINGS too..such as..a…well…yea,running (I think this was some constructive thing from my part)…lazing around…started blogging too..having breakfast-cum-lunch…watching every possible crapiest channel on T.V ..ah!!! FOR EXAMPLE -> INDIA tv… needs some mention now..

INDIA t.v :::::I never thought I would give this importance to you that I be possibly writing for you..but u made me vomit my frustration now!! This one is the CRAPIEST,DUMBEST of channel I have come across so far..matlab ki ,How can you guys broadcast such useless news?? A man flying by his own,alien seen at smbdy’s bedroom,an angrez resembling Lord Krishna,a boy taking out fresh green leaves outta his ears… man..wtf! I m not interested n nobody is! Useless fellows! Useless news! Loosers! Unfortunately the channel is placed such that I HAVE to go past it for other channels otherwise…..leave it!!

I myself am surprised that hvnt met mona,amita,neetika all these holidays, Amy wasnt here though rest could have met, but for reasons well known (to me n mona)…guess whenever we’d meet next ..it ‘ll be a blast as ever.

Anyways.. I simply enjoyed the holi-days! Dunno when I’ll be doing all these insane things next! Yesterday only I was constantly smiling for no reasons..naa..m not retarted by any means..silly me!!okay okay..enuf!!

Chal, its already too much a crap..kal se again classes,pracs,long hours commuting (sickk),less hours sleeping,frens, but lots of activities :)
Right now listening to the track ‘city of blinding lights’ ..driving me crazy..:P
The end!

DOWN-TO-EARTH..

Its been a hesitant start to the summer,first those rains (gave me blues), then soaring temperatures,boring sultry holidays AND a wait that was only getting longer…

There’s nothing better than snatching a little relaxation time from life’s hectic schedule & getting that little bit close-to-nature. Although ,in my case I had as such no “busy” schedule coz I was doing poor in those goddam holidays,squandering time, trying to make that obstacle succumb on 22nd june and scurried that very evening to a lovely place.

Sometimes life doesn’t go the way you want it & sometimes it goes you never thought of it like before.. Plans planned at random really works (atleast for me)..

After talking no. of times on phone..located him(bro) at station as I was coming directly from the exam center . boarded train at 7:25pm, bidding adieu to friends..i let myself explore the new world..

Next morning I was home.Soon I realized I am away, away from a maddening city bustling always..providing a brief relief to those deft fingers maneuvering left-right,up-down arrows on the keyboard..a break to my lungs which m sure must have got pissed-off inhaling daily polluted air..a break to my eyes which must have got habitual of only seeing the fruits of technology everywhere..n then sensing those large inquisitive eyes at me eager to find out who the new guest was, minutes later I was at ease with my little cute cousins..Garima,Nitin(Mr. Default), Amit,Rahul,Kavi(shy girl),Jhanvi,Utkarsh,Nisha,Nidhi..love you guys!

It was warm but pleasantly sunny, while it was peaceful too..pure and fresh air,unsophisticated lifestyle, greenery all around(this greenery was different from one that is here..this seems so out-of-reach here..as if planted only to look n appraise..but there I cud actually feel it,), Neem,Lemon,Mango,Jamun tree(Sygium cumini OR Myrtus cumini OR Eugenia jambolanum) :P whatever..view was just riveting to eyes.

I used to wake up just at the crack of dawn (almost 5 or so) [nvr done that here except on exam days] n sleeping as early as 10:00pm..hmm..i refuse all that comfort [not permanently;)] that I get here than lying supined on bed on the terrace adoring millions of brrrightly shining stars..(sometimes even foolishly trying count ‘em) I don’t find such stars here :(

Ambling across fields (farms) touching leaves of sugarcane (Saccharum officinarum) :P , casting pebbles at Mango tree sometimes even plucking one while getting on it.. simply soothing to mind!
it rained once there.. i never kind of enjoyed “rain” due to following reasons:

a) may be coz I have this phobia of the aftermaths of rain on clothes, n that weird feeling when you are drenched in water;
b) OR may be; out of romanticism that people when in "love" enjoy being in rain..phew!
c) OR shayad coz there is so much air pollution here so probably was worried of the effect of rain+ HNO3 + H2SO4 + other harmful pollutants that may come down along with rain on the skin..
d) Miscelleaneous ;)


BUT I had a great experience being in open while its raining n I ll consider trying it again here (probably)

I thank my uncle for sharing such beautiful yet knowledgeable incidences of life,facts behind Ram mandir dispute,about mumtaz’s tomb, hybrid seeds n many more..i thank my bro without whom I would have not been able to write all this had he not made that random plan to go there.

But most important n exciting was the presence of HIM. He, who won my heart. I now truly believe how one could fall in love- at- first- sight. His spiky hairs,that lean but healthy body,occasionally giving me those killing looks..ah! take me back!! His every move made my heart beat faster n louder, just felt like cuddling everytime I saw him . He was a "baby buffalo" :P you \m/

I was all stultified here when those 7 days suffused into my life. I find myself lucky to have it.Cops dint allow me to enter the premises due to security reasons but shall visit next time the ram-janam-bhoomi :) I am back in the bustling city n all rejuvenated. Ready to work hard n party harder ;) amen!!

As long as it gets
As hard it can test
As good as it seems
As bad sometimes it reveals..

i'll keep striding..

As dark it may seem
As lighter it could have its regime
As difficult it might turn
As challanging it may be in return

I'll keep striding...


(FOR my goal)
n shall come out with flying colors..