Monday, December 11, 2017

Last few days of 2017

My First SnowFall in Philly. 12-09-12
This year is just on the verge of ending soon with promises, wishes, and dreams full for another year. Unlike all other years, I am not going to make any resolutions this year, because :
  1. My resolutions pertaining to doing exercise and lose weight have always gone in vain. Hence, no futile attempts, anymore.
  2. Plans of becoming sane, mature n all that. I think I am now that, already.
  3. Plans for studying harder this year (the stupid ritual of mine, studying 5 mins before and after midnight of every 31st Dec). Please, not this time. Already, I am going to earn my doctorate soon.
  4. Rather, I just plan to celebrate my New Year like I never did before.
Although I am not the person who likes to share his plan ahead of time (yeah, I 'm a little old school and believe sharing plans beforehand generally spoils it), let me share this time and see what happens. This New Year Eve, I am planning to celebrate in the New York with my bunch of other Fulbright friends. It's actually gonna start from the evening of 25th on Christmas and continue until the 2nd of January. I am looking forward to that. Meanwhile, I will finish my pending stuff from this year and update you with a general overview of this year. I think this will be a good exercise, I would love to look back at it after, maybe, several years and Laugh!. 

Wednesday, November 29, 2017

Friends like family

Somewhere in Chicago
The connectivity and love you feel with your friends from the past are boundless. It's kind of an overwhelming feeling. Doesnt matter, whether it was your best friend, at some point in life or just your batch mate, whom you had few exchanges in a day, limiting to a Hi, Bye or How ya'doin? I just feel as if I have shared a beautiful phase of my life with him/her and you feel connected. Ya'all will never harm each other. Can't really explain what I wanna convey. Tch!

My school, UPenn :)
      All I know is that I am making tad too many promises while I am here in the U.S to meet and go out with my people from the past. I really hope I am able to fulfill them. I wanna go back as an improved person who is more organized, punctual, sober and logical. I hope I'll be able to do that. Maybe living on your own and this far from your peeps makes you realize the importance of people, relationships and in general, life.
As of now, I am just trying to work everything out as I had planned and enjoy as much of my experience here as I can  (and the rest will make for good stories, right?)

Currently, #HighOnLife :)

Just a song

Naina.. jo saanjhe khwab dekhte the
Naina.. bichad ke aaj ro diye hain yun
Naina.. jo milke raat jaagte the
Naina.. sehar mein palken meechte hain yun

Juda huve kadam
Jinhone li thi ye kasam
Milke chalenge hardum
Ab baant’te hain ye gham
Bheege naina.. jo sanjhe khwab dekhte the
Naina.. bichhad ke aaj ro diye hain yun

Saans hairaan hai
Mann pareshaan hai
Ho rahi si kyun ruaansa ye meri jaan hai

Kyun nirasha se hai
Aas haari huyi
Kyun sawaalon ka utha sa
Dil mein toofaan hai

Naina.. thhe aasmaan ke sitaare
Naina.. grahan mein aaj toot’te hain yun
Naina.. kabhi jo dhoop senkte thhe
Naina.. thehar ke chhaaon dhoondhte hain yun

Juda huye kadam
Jinhone li thi ye kasam
Milke chalenge hardum
Ab baant’te hain ye gham
Bheege naina.. jo sanjhe khwab dekhte the
Naina.. bichhad ke aaj ro diye hain yun

Seems a pretty sad song, isn't it? Yeah, but its a good one. And the most interesting thing is, I m enjoying the mature wali sadness. I never used to like such (sad) songs and the mature types of movies. But, as they say, there's a term called sweet pain. I am kinda enjoying that ;)

Thursday, November 23, 2017

My story

No one can know my story,
I tell you that
No one can know me that well,
I promise you that

Tuesday, July 4, 2017


Yes, that's exactly my state of mind right now.

I have got my Skype scheduled in 2 hours from now with Warren. Interestingly, it's 4th of July and America would be celebrating. But, somewhere in the corners of India, someone is infuriating. This is mainly because I am stuck with these phase equilibrium problems and I couldn't solve them. I have tried a lot. The most interesting part is that I have to present today. So with a good start to the day many more excuses might be on the way to Warren. I just hope I am saved today with the embarrassment. Going absolutely crazy creating new files in Aspen and failing to get desired phases. I think I m gonna shut this down and go have Samosa and Tea at Kali da. 

Yeah, that'll be better.

P.S : In my opinion, I think the solution to all the problems in this world is Good food.


Friday, May 19, 2017

Life these days..

My average day ends by 1:30 or 2 am and I woke up at 8, get ready and all and then move to the lab. But between hall and lab, I have to make a stopover to have my breakfast. Why? Because hall mess is closed due to summer vacations. There's a time constraint for marking attendance. In order to do that, immediately have to rush to the department. After crossing that hurdle, the next is to several ways:

1. Old building lab
2. P K Sinha Centre
3. Mechanical Eng lab (CFD lab)
4. Cryogenics Centre lab
5. Main BT lab

So, while I am on my bicycle, I decide which way to go. Why I have to do that?
1. P K Sinha Centre; because of my students, two of them, have their experimental set-up running over there and I am guiding them. Last month only got done with two more after submission of their thesis. My inoculums and other experiment are also going on there.
2. Old building lab; since that's my old lab and I just love that place. I find my mental peace there. There are not many people in that lab so I prefer to be there. A good place to write and read actually. I don't like to do that with many people around.Also, all the experimental set-ups have to be done there only before shifting to yet another lab of ours which is CFD lab in Mechanical Engineering Department. 
3. So for those experiments, I rush to CFD lab and the sampling and analysis of all those samples have to be done in the main building lab.
4. Cryogenics lab; to learn Aspen, for my US research work.

So technically and literally, I am running all day long. And, this is minus, going to the raceway pond area, to the SRIC office, main admin block, CWIS center, Civil eng etc. So yesterday night I was thinking why I get so tired at the end of the day and sleep like a hibernating bear and I came to this conclusion. So I think I m fine.

Sunday, March 19, 2017

When I meet my Future self

Music and Library does to me what Yoga/Meditation does to others.
Library is one of the finest place where my brain and body answers as one.  The amount of peace and intensity I get here is unspeakable. As last few days have been so chaotic, so messy, so over-loaded, damn! I still have tons of work and deadlines, but I managed to have a fulfilling time. Playing the Vidya vox version of We dun talk.., I love how she used Tabla, the sound of which got amalgmated with the original ones and making the cover look even better. I think I am naturally inclined to music, good music, all kinds of music. I love Tabla, I will learn it someday soon. With this, I am imagining how my place/home would look like/be in future.
few things I would like to list here for my own reference:

  1. A good, really good music system
  2. A good, very good television set with the widest screen possible to give me a theatre feel.
  3. Tabla in a music room
  4. A very nice little garden, I love plants and gardening
  5. A chai hut/room where flavors from around the world would be available
  6. A play room where playstations and other things should be there. (Not the kind in fifty shades.. :P)
  7. Library :) How can I miss this. A nice room with lots of books and nice chair with nice settings.
Already having a good day!

Monday, February 20, 2017

Feasting and Fasting!

Well, Hello!

My sweetie pie blog :P

You see, I am in a good mood today. Why? umm...well last night only I have uploaded two journal articles and I was so busy preparing them for last couple of days. What I am doing since today : Nothing. Woke up late @ 11 am, pushed myself for a head bath, wore my Van heusen favourite top and you know whattttttttttt? I fit well inside it. Thats the top which I had bought before my UK trip last year, at that time I was weighing some 59 odd kgs. Ofcourse, once as I was back, I had swollen like anything from all the pizza's, burgers, cup cakes (Oh, love), cakes, pastries and my great cooking skills. I was so occupied that I never got anytime to work upon myself. And I LOVE food, so no chance of dieting. Dieting is for loosers :P

So, right after I came back from Mumbai for a good 15 days holidays with my parents and sister, I had planned I HAVE to shed those extra kilos. I was 65 kilos :( Sixxty-damn five kilos.

Then I started with a secret recipe that  I am not gonna share. Its something you eat..umm no drink. Believe me its not something bad. Its purely legal and healthy. It's a vegetable actually. But I m not gonna tell you my this secret recipe. I m gonna keep it to myself.

But you know making that Secret-recipe every morning was a pain in the ass. So, initially I was regular for 10-15 days but later I skipped it. It sure helped me reduce some 1-1.5 kgs. Not more than that.

Finally, I came back to my favorite thing in the world. Badminton. Why? because, running seemed difficult to manage (since I am a senior PhD student and I have tons of work), dieting is huh! impossible for a foodies like me, so Baddy is my love and I enjoy doing that. I play for like 3-4 hours daily in my hostel with guys. Yeah, since ours is a co-ed hostel. And trust me they all are very good players. So playing with them not only improved my game but also helped me reduce weight.

Today, just today while going to department I stopped to weigh myself, it came  59 kgs. My original me! Yay!! and the top I am wearing today is making me look beautiful :)

Yo Yo :D

Friday, February 10, 2017


When life gives you lemons, 
make lemonade,
with extra ice!
Nothing is easy, 
it comes with a price
Even, breathing is difficult, sometimes..
Everyone's battling their own struggle
Stay positive, Stay blessed
I keep on telling..
but, it becomes tad too hard, sometimes
In those times
Believing on Him is the hope you aspire
So many things you dig in your heart
So many expressions, you crush inside
life is short, still
Somehow.. pages forms a chapter, and chapters complete a story
Sooner or later, it will all make sense

Tuesday, January 10, 2017

8 hour block

We've been told by health experts or often read in newspapers, television that an individual should have an eight-hours block of sleep everyday as an adult. There are lot of conjecture about this that goes on and I think it varies from an individual to individual. However, for me particularly, 8 hour sleep is a must. Though I feel really good after having it, waking up refreshed and having my efficiency better, at the same time, I feel I kind of waste 2 hours of my day into just sleep. I wish I was sleeping for 6 hours instead, then I would have got more time for the day's work.
I even know there is no solution for it, and many a times I have got into trouble or sleeping this long and also deep. Yes, my sleep is long and deep and continuous. I dont know whether it is good or not.

Thursday, December 29, 2016

I am too good

Yes, it's true.

Many a times, I get to feel this feeling that I am indeed too good. I am not exaggerating, may be I 'm biased or just not met enough people out there. You know, right now I am feeling where should I start from :P my list of goodness is too long :D One of my lab mate (Ravi) keeps me saying often, aap itna sab kaise kar lete ho (How come you do all this), my guide says, I'm blessed and my friends says, I m stud. Acknowledging all the sweet compliments, I think it starts from my childhood. (Now one can get a feel, I'm talking like a celebrity). 
Right from my school, I was a multi-tasking person. I never kind of focused only on one thing. It doesn't mean I did things with half-heart. Problem was I always wanted to do all the things liking acing it. The first competition of any kind that I participated in was a Banana race, in fourth standard :P. You know its like how they tie your hand and you got to run for 100 meters then eat a banana with your mouth and come back 100 meters to the finishing line. I won first prize. May be it was just for the banana :P and there it was, the count of my participation and winning was endless, I have over 70 certificates from various competitions that used to be in schools viz. debating, sports, cultural, quizzes, writing, science congresses what not. You name it. See I don't want to sound boasting but I'm telling the truth. I remember my mom used to say, when after the annual day prize distributions, when I used to get down rom the school bus how my hands used to be filled with prizes, medals and trophies and how neighbour aunties used to praise about me to my mom, sonu ne to pure school ka prize hi jeet aayi hai (Seems sonu has won prizes of everybody). The pace slowed down a little ater my 12th standard. But it never stopped. Even during college, I participated in debating, cultural etc. After coming to IIT Kgp I felt I am at the right place and at the right time. This place is filled with opportunities. If someone is motivates and enthusiast, he/she can become a Sundar Pichai or Kejriwal (sorry about that :P). Oh by the way, Sundar Pichai is coming to the campus on January 5th. 
Likewise, I used this place and the opportunity showered to me by God to make full justice. I participated again in all the things possible. It helped me make lots of friends, stay fit, evolve more as a person and be confident. Not only I got good grades and be academically sound, publish papers I also happened to grab some good internship opportunities, the latest being the Fulbright fellowship. But when I started to write this post, my orientation was a little different.  wanted to talk about me as a person, but couldn't stop to tell the whole story. 
Even as a person, I think I am not a person with ill intent or someone who is bad, like bad. I know it would be inappropriate to call/tag someone as bad because its about perspectives. Honestly telling, I think I have a good heart. I will never ever hurt someone intentionally or be mean enough to spoil someone's work or even say a bad word. Again, I feel its because of my upbringing and the whole credits for this goes to my parents and siblings. I know them being one of the nicest people on earth. Such sweet, adorable and kind people they are. I kind of inherited from them. So its like a bonus, I am good otherwise too and with a good heart and mouth. So this makes me a wonderful person :P I feel like singing this song, My name is sheila, main khud se pyar jataun. I may sound narcissist. and yeah I am beautiful too :P 
Ab aur nahi bola jata :P 
By the way, just yesterday I won Gold in Mixed doubles and Gold in Women championship of Badminton. So, you see :P

Wednesday, October 26, 2016


I cracked this beauty. I did. And I am going to the University of Pennsylvania, the U.S next year.
It feels great! I remember vividly right from my first year of Ph.D., how I used to just think of applying for this prestigious Fellowship. The Fulbright-Kalam Climate fellowship. I didn't apply ever since.  (honestly telling) I was a little scared. I had heard a lot about it. For example, only those people are selected who have got n no. of publications or who are just par excellence, just brilliant to the power infinity. You know how it feels I am not bad. Not bad dude. (Though I also possess these perks from my Ph.D. research).

I remember the entire process. It was somewhere around Feb-March that I contacted only 8 profs in the U.S. All of them only from Ivy league colleges. Since I had already got selected through Newton-Bhabha Fellowship and had so much to do already, I had planned I won't devote much time to this because it does demand a LOT of time. To my luck, this was my 8th and the last application mail to Prof. Seider, from the University of Pennsylvania that I got a reply from him after 3 days. Obviously, he had some things to clear from me and know about me before giving me the Letter of invitation, thus he asked me to do a Skype. I agreed but I was running short of time since I had to go to U.K for the NB thing. I remember my first Skype with Prof. was on the first day that I arrived in U.K. It was a relatively short Skype (15 minutes) since I was struggling for a good internet connection. Thus, I requested him to give me some time so that we can have a Skype on Friday, the 6th June. I was sky-ping from my Department of chemical and biological engineering at the University of Sheffield from the lounge. It was a good 40 mins Skype and I got to know he like me. Still, he wanted to be surer, he gave me reading materials and again asked me to do Skype. It was around 3-4 times that we skyped together followed by many email exchanges that he assured me to give the Letter. I was happy to receive it. As soon as I got the letter, I applied online, which in itself was a lengthy procedure, A good 14-page application form, along with a lot of attachments, 3 Letter of recommendations, personal statements and what not. Finally, I submitted it. The wait then started. The wait: for the shortlisting for the interviews.

The result was supposed to come somewhere in mid-august but it didn't come. I was waiting continuously. The time was running fast to pack my bags from U.K. It was 2 days until I had to board the flight to India that a mail popped up in the middle of the road when I was running to the bank. Like its usual, I am the 11th-hour person, and I was literally running for some work and took out the phone from my pocket. Still panting, but felt happy to know that I was shortlisted and had to appear for the interview on 23rd September in New Delhi.

I was back in India and to Kharagpur and I had to go back again to Delhi for the interviews. I was preparing way too much since I didn't want to goof up this one that I wanted so dearly. So I arrived on 22nd September to my home in Gurgaon. It's always good to be home. I didn't want to study any further as I wanted to eat, play with Puchu my niece, and talk to di, mummy and papa and everyone. So, it was the night before the D-Day. I stopped everything, all the preparations and suddenly all my fear was gone. In fact, I was not feeling anything as such but feeling very confident. Next morning, I got up and donned a casual wear. Papa accompanied me to the USIEF office in Mandi house. Ater reaching there, changed into formals and waited for my turn while papa waited for me in the USIEF canteen. I was scheduled to be interviewed at 12:45 pm but the girl just before me took much of my time as well and she was back by 1 pm. Too many thoughts again started pouring up in my head. Maybe she gave it too well; maybe the interviewers wanted to talk to her more than why she took this much time etc. etc. Anyways, I stepped inside, gave a brief smile to 12 of them; in a round table seating. As expected. the U.S person started me asking, he was too sweet for the first one. And then there were those 10 minutes. I gave the best interview of my life. I was confident, had the presence of mind and paid attention to all of them. I could see they all were satisfied with my answers. I spoke a lot with a smile, and then it was over. I came out. I saw my wristwatch (that I wore for the first time) it went for just 10 minutes. I had mixed feelings mainly because 1. I knew it went really well, but  2. only for 10 minutes (maybe they couldn't tolerate me more). So I was little skeptical. There were too many thoughts in my mind.

So it was 3-4 days later that I received a phone call from of ice of my department that I have a post (I was still in Delhi that time). Therefore I immediately called Rabiya to go collect it from the office and give it to Arpit. I hadn't told anyone about this whole thing. So it was with Arpit, and he informed me over the phone about it. Selected. 

It's a great feeling to be a Fulbright Scholar. I hope to do good. :)

Tuesday, October 11, 2016

Happy Durga Puja

So it's that time of the year! Durga Puja or PujO with the O as Bengalis call it.
I am in Kharagpur these days enjoying my solitude and private time. It's that time of the year when literally the Kharagpur, (with Kharagpur, I mean IIT Kharagpur) go barren, it's empty. The roads are lonesome, the shops are closed and the population is scarce. It's that time of the year when everybody goes home because It'd Pujo time and we are blessed to unoficially have official holidays. Nobody's mind. But I planned to stay back here. Why? Umm..several reasons. 

  1. First, I have just come back from home like last week. 
  2. Second I have a TOEFL exam on Sunday. 
  3. Third, I have a major presentation to give on next Wednesday, and
  4.  Fourth, I wanted to take a break.
These days, my routine is to get up (after having a sweet eight-hour sleep), make breakfast with Masala Tea (Post my UK trip, I love cooking and eating that), read or prepare for TOEFL and go for running in the evening followed by exercise, later prepare dinner, again read something, watch some series/movies and go back to helipad.

It is such a beautiful day today. Sun shining bright yet low not causing heat. It's making the entire day bright and beautiful. Staying especially in the room of my hostel, with a balcony facing me and I could look outside the green pastures outside, with periodic sound of Pujo music and Maa Durga Sangeet, this whole set-up is so enticing. Filling me with positivism and motivation. 

One more thing, sometimes you should accept the way things are. It may be difficult, really difficult. I understand. But you got to be strong for I believe whatever happens, it is for a good reason in the long run. For the time being, you need to surround yourself with good people and your family. Time heals everything and gives you number of ways to start it over again. What is most important: Stay motivated, love your work, have an aim and respect your family. Everything will be good then.

Happy Dusshera!
May this Dusshera light up for you,
the hopes of happy times and dreams for a year full of smiles :)