~ Oblivion ~

Something is not clicking... I have this strong urge to scribble but something inside is eating away my spirits. let me try..
“Life isn’t a cake-walk...” As I grow I tend to understand the real crux behind this phrase. I remember I always had grievances about me being amateurish at times in taking decision past 5-6 years . Everybody beside me knowing their right, wrongs and stuff like that..and I used to scold myself for, being youngest at home therefore a spoilt child! But in my three years of graduation, I kind of metamorphosed, the child like, carefree (or careless) attitude is no more existing now with me as now I take every petty matter with ‘great’ concern (too much an adjective..!..) but truly. Obviously, I have grown old at least as per my 10th DOB certificate, n have lived two decades of my life that now I am referred a ‘changed-individual’ and I was pretty hunky-dory about that..

But why things don’t turn out the way you want?. Why I am having failed-plans these days?( may be I’ll stop planning things in advance) Why I am loosing things these days?(oh! My pen-drive, where on the earth you are? ) And heck! why am I expecting things for heavens sake?…………… I recall having made some policies in life that I planned to follow sincerely. One of among them was ‘not to expect’ but time and again; candidly, I forget my self-made policies…n I just goofed up again!

There are some people who refuse to learn from mistakes and I, for sure, was not one of them as I believed its only you who can be a lesson for yourself because people will say many things, you listen them but never follow.. ‘A man learn from his own mistakes’ I agree!

So, moral of the story is that, stop expecting, stop planning and be wary (order is random) BUT always get going!!

End of Vellapanti.. Ouch!!

The 2-month blessed vacation is almost over today and I left no chance to spend it in sheer vellapanti. I remember my senior asked me at orkut “so wat r u doin these days??” to which I replied “I was doing NOTHING” yesss, the word nothing typed in caps as if it was such a great task to perform! N when he again asked “tell me plz how to do NOTHING......... I have never done it earlier” I replied most shamelessly that “doing NOTHING is actually not everybody's cup of tea..its very difficult..only great persons can do it like me ;)”

Its okay u r into phd n all..i am still a student of lesser grade than you who gets holidays n can spend time in vellapanti..huh!! may be grapes-are-sour for you ;)

But when I think back I guess it wasn’t difficult either..one can spend daysss being vella until that vellaness reaches peakness to kick you out from your house as it did to me. I behaved variously in these 2-months..sometimes thinking too much sometimes nothing at all.as it is said “excess of everything is bad” ..proved right.

In these velle days, I ate, slept, jumped, ran, laughed, cried :P, t.v, movies (only2), read, wrote…etc etc..but Godji,please next time (if at all) I get such ample holidays keep something for me to do in b/w.

Somebody was sending guinea souls in heaven,somebody was dissecting calotes,somebody busy in end sem exams,somebody busy in meter-testing,somebody in summer- training,swimming,visiting hometown…etc etc..

But fine..it wasn’t bad either here ..i have been doing THINGS too..such as..a…well…yea,running (I think this was some constructive thing from my part)…lazing around…started blogging too..having breakfast-cum-lunch…watching every possible crapiest channel on T.V ..ah!!! FOR EXAMPLE -> INDIA tv… needs some mention now..

INDIA t.v :::::I never thought I would give this importance to you that I be possibly writing for you..but u made me vomit my frustration now!! This one is the CRAPIEST,DUMBEST of channel I have come across so far..matlab ki ,How can you guys broadcast such useless news?? A man flying by his own,alien seen at smbdy’s bedroom,an angrez resembling Lord Krishna,a boy taking out fresh green leaves outta his ears… man..wtf! I m not interested n nobody is! Useless fellows! Useless news! Loosers! Unfortunately the channel is placed such that I HAVE to go past it for other channels otherwise…..leave it!!

I myself am surprised that hvnt met mona,amita,neetika all these holidays, Amy wasnt here though rest could have met, but for reasons well known (to me n mona)…guess whenever we’d meet next ..it ‘ll be a blast as ever.

Anyways.. I simply enjoyed the holi-days! Dunno when I’ll be doing all these insane things next! Yesterday only I was constantly smiling for no reasons..naa..m not retarted by any means..silly me!!okay okay..enuf!!

Chal, its already too much a crap..kal se again classes,pracs,long hours commuting (sickk),less hours sleeping,frens, but lots of activities :)
Right now listening to the track ‘city of blinding lights’ ..driving me crazy..:P
The end!

DOWN-TO-EARTH..

Its been a hesitant start to the summer,first those rains (gave me blues), then soaring temperatures,boring sultry holidays AND a wait that was only getting longer…

There’s nothing better than snatching a little relaxation time from life’s hectic schedule & getting that little bit close-to-nature. Although ,in my case I had as such no “busy” schedule coz I was doing poor in those goddam holidays,squandering time, trying to make that obstacle succumb on 22nd june and scurried that very evening to a lovely place.

Sometimes life doesn’t go the way you want it & sometimes it goes you never thought of it like before.. Plans planned at random really works (atleast for me)..

After talking no. of times on phone..located him(bro) at station as I was coming directly from the exam center . boarded train at 7:25pm, bidding adieu to friends..i let myself explore the new world..

Next morning I was home.Soon I realized I am away, away from a maddening city bustling always..providing a brief relief to those deft fingers maneuvering left-right,up-down arrows on the keyboard..a break to my lungs which m sure must have got pissed-off inhaling daily polluted air..a break to my eyes which must have got habitual of only seeing the fruits of technology everywhere..n then sensing those large inquisitive eyes at me eager to find out who the new guest was, minutes later I was at ease with my little cute cousins..Garima,Nitin(Mr. Default), Amit,Rahul,Kavi(shy girl),Jhanvi,Utkarsh,Nisha,Nidhi..love you guys!

It was warm but pleasantly sunny, while it was peaceful too..pure and fresh air,unsophisticated lifestyle, greenery all around(this greenery was different from one that is here..this seems so out-of-reach here..as if planted only to look n appraise..but there I cud actually feel it,), Neem,Lemon,Mango,Jamun tree(Sygium cumini OR Myrtus cumini OR Eugenia jambolanum) :P whatever..view was just riveting to eyes.

I used to wake up just at the crack of dawn (almost 5 or so) [nvr done that here except on exam days] n sleeping as early as 10:00pm..hmm..i refuse all that comfort [not permanently;)] that I get here than lying supined on bed on the terrace adoring millions of brrrightly shining stars..(sometimes even foolishly trying count ‘em) I don’t find such stars here :(

Ambling across fields (farms) touching leaves of sugarcane (Saccharum officinarum) :P , casting pebbles at Mango tree sometimes even plucking one while getting on it.. simply soothing to mind!
it rained once there.. i never kind of enjoyed “rain” due to following reasons:

a) may be coz I have this phobia of the aftermaths of rain on clothes, n that weird feeling when you are drenched in water;
b) OR may be; out of romanticism that people when in "love" enjoy being in rain..phew!
c) OR shayad coz there is so much air pollution here so probably was worried of the effect of rain+ HNO3 + H2SO4 + other harmful pollutants that may come down along with rain on the skin..
d) Miscelleaneous ;)


BUT I had a great experience being in open while its raining n I ll consider trying it again here (probably)

I thank my uncle for sharing such beautiful yet knowledgeable incidences of life,facts behind Ram mandir dispute,about mumtaz’s tomb, hybrid seeds n many more..i thank my bro without whom I would have not been able to write all this had he not made that random plan to go there.

But most important n exciting was the presence of HIM. He, who won my heart. I now truly believe how one could fall in love- at- first- sight. His spiky hairs,that lean but healthy body,occasionally giving me those killing looks..ah! take me back!! His every move made my heart beat faster n louder, just felt like cuddling everytime I saw him . He was a "baby buffalo" :P you \m/

I was all stultified here when those 7 days suffused into my life. I find myself lucky to have it.Cops dint allow me to enter the premises due to security reasons but shall visit next time the ram-janam-bhoomi :) I am back in the bustling city n all rejuvenated. Ready to work hard n party harder ;) amen!!