At Midnight

Sometimes you like being alone,
Sometimes you like being hurt
Sometimes You like the pain..
It is such a real feeling, A

Loving the silence, the darkness of my room
Loving being alone right now
and listening to nothing but me
Its such a real feeling

With noodles and coffee as my dinner
and some half left notes
and tomorrow's plan of work ready
I feel so light standing on the cliff...
After all, its such a real feeling

and I only remember this..
Its a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life...

Farewell

I joined IIT KGP for the first time in 2009 for my M.Tech degree. I finished that in 2011 and joined for a PhD in Bangalore. I must say I was not happy with my research area and the atmosphere there which is required to do research. Hence, I landed back in KGP to start my second innings in January 2013 as a PhD student. Well, both time periods had differences in them. While I observed, M.Tech was a lot more carefree, PhD I see demanded lot of sincerity and dedication from me. Certainly I was not used to it and therefore experienced a tough time initially trying to adjust into the new way of PhD life. I remember how I struggled for petty things like motor and AC drives.. Phew!! Also, 2009-10 I had made some amazing friends in KGP, mostly B.techs, Dual degree students who were in their first year then and now they are going to pass out from college. I was never a serious kind of student, though I used to study nice and get good grades but my hands were more in lots of other co-curricular activities as well. That’s why I never kind of made PhD friends, all were either B.Techs, Dual degrees or M.Tech Junta in my PhD. The two years have passed away so well in their company and this is that time when they are going. I know we will be in touch through calls, Facebook, WhatsApp but it cannot match the feeling of having the person in front of you, literally and then do the rattling. I know I have literally eaten up their minds with silliest of  my problems like lab politics, lab mates diaries or my roommates bitching, but then I used to enjoy venting it out in front of them. Now, who will I say all that to? I know, I can never make friends with PhDs. They are so different, not my type or may be I m not their type. 

Come May 15, everyone will be gone. I too will go to my home for a good period of time this time (approx 10-15 days), but what I am dreading the most is coming back to the same campus in June and find everyone gone.

KGP, please surprise me.

For my love to you shall never be less..