Self-Motivation: The Key

What I immediately need to do it is  re-orient myself. Focus is very important. It keeps going and coming. In a set of environments like this, where you live far far away from home in a company of different people, the key factor which needs to be kept alive is Self-motivation. I remember how I used to think differently when Sir(my Guide) used to say this in the beginning about Self-motivation. I used to perceive it as a motivational speech or dialogue that every Professor gives to his students. But, now I realize what he meant when he told all that. A midst all circumstances, good, not-so-good, the question is how to alwayd keep the fire burning. How to always keep yourself motivated? Certainly one time or other you will get dull for xyz reason and then all you do is stop doing things. It is like you enter a lag phase where all you do is save your energy and try to cope up with the adverse conditions outside. I dont want this lag phase for myself. Is it too difficult to achieve? What is the funda..the master cocktail? 

Bakar Post

So this is a Sunday (late) morning and like everyone in this world, I too plan to spend it lavishly. Yesterday, it was hectic. My PhD supervisor is a wonderful gentleman, he is different, different in a good way from all the people I know. For a sabbatical, he's gone to teach in Columbia University, US for 6 months after getting a Nehru Full-Bright Scholarship. That's indeed an achievement. If I was not his student and then if my guide was gone, I would have been really happy as I would get to live peaceful 6 months of my life. But he's superb so I wont have this feeling. Anyways, so once he's gone there we have Lab presentations over SKYPE every fortnight. Yesterday was also one such night. Day was spent preparing slides, evening over Hall Day in Sancharini di's Hall and night with sir. It was all so good. The hall day was experience was also good especially because di's parents have also joined in. I felt so good and remembered my parents.

Okay, so here I am today, all charged only to find everything else is so quiet. Yes, everything is so quiet. Like everyone is sleeping in the day. I wish I get to live in one such surrounding where whenever I wake up, I get to hear some really good music playing around me. It really charges me up. On the contrary, my roomie is STUDYING... O God, who study on a Sunday morning when the mid-semester exams just got over. Anyways, I think I have so much to tell about her that I can write a post dedicating to her :) She is different :D So , now what I ' ll do is watch Mahabharat...Yes! I am addicted to it. I did not see it when I was young, guess I was really young that time but everyone else around me seem to have seen it already. But koi ni, better late than never. Umm, after that lets see..May be I should go for jogging..Umm  I have no idea what to do.. Lets see

Duniya-daari

Of late, I have come to in sense with the fact that life, the true one, can be led by your divine indivisible soul who chants peace only when you constantly make connection with it. Mass and energy balance is everywhere even when you go. What is left is that invisible energy and invisible consciousness. Ultimately, the truth lies in being you. You have to be true for you are being watched up above by the super powers, one that can sweep you off from the feet. There is definitely a super power that I believe in and fear. I have come to realize, all the laws that says the matter and everything in this world strive to attain equilibrium is true. Equilibrium is the state. But much above this, lies your conscience that can give you the treasure that surpasses all forms of peace and that is the true equilibrium. Awaken the consciousness in you and be blessed . That is the only way. Give me the power o Lord! 

From Anywhere to Kharagpur

I am meant to be here, I go everywhere and I come back here. Looks like some connection to me but whatever it is I feel absolutely great about it. I don't know where I'll go after Kgp but all I can say is this, "You can take me anywhere but you can’t just take out Kgp from me". I am once again in this amazing place. It has got a world to me. People often complain that it’s far away from city but I never see it from that angle. It has just got everything for me. And whenever I am here, I do wonderful in everything, Touch Wood. I feel blessed.

I have joined in Bioprocess and Bioproduct development Lab, in Dept. of Biotechnology this time. That’s what I always wanted. My Guide is a wonderful person; so far my labbies have been good too.  I can’t ask for more but to the higher powers, give me strength to really do good and make everyone happy especially my family and friends.

Yo Yo Honey Singh

For the love of lord, why is everyone after Yo Yo Honey Singh. Often I have seen people referring him as sexist, misogynist, raw, unpolished, self-righteous Punjabi, what not! And his music and lyrics as meaningless, torture, dumb, annoying etc. If you have so much of problem, stop the music or cotton plug your ears and just move your ass off that place. Why you show public disgrace. Some people like it, let them just enjoy the beats, please don’t keep on telling how he sung “Ch**t” for the first time and got famous. We know it already and if we don’t have any problem, please don’t stand for us and do your frigging business.

Cheers!

Another Start

Life's so good. We realize this only after going through a rough patch. Hard times or sad times teach you a lot. They make you stronger and fills you with so many experiences that adds personality in you. What I used to be, what I am and What I will be, I am really excited to see my avatars in this invariably changing life episodes. I remember I have always cribbed about being immature and careless,but today I feel I have become much responsible to the level that even my family acknowledges this fact. I am happy about it. Still I may be quite amateurish with certain things, I still would goof up things and make silly mistakes but then we can ignore that. That is my part of being myself and I guess I would never want to change it for that would lead to a different me, which I don't want to become. I am quite happy with how I am and I want to become a better person gradually.

The big fat Indian Wedding

Seventy grands for a lehnga?? I heard that figure and my jaw dropped. You may call me a hoarder but I seriously believe marriage now-a-days have become a way to waste money on unnecessary things. It’s how people show to others how much they have and can spend. I know people say it's the most important day, you'll remember it forever but for me, I don't really remember things from the past that much or with details. I'd  rather take that money and use it as a house down payment or emergency fund or pay odd all student loan/cc/auto debt. 

I’m thinking about why people so clearly prefer big weddings, even with the price tag. For a lot of people, I think it’s a matter of priorities: they’ve thought things through and the idea of a big wedding and all that goes with it (fun times with family, a great party and so on) is worth it. But, the experience of the perfect wedding is worth more than the alternatives of where they can spend that money.Hardly, anyone thinks about that. It has become a kind of social pressure these days.

Every one of us have if not more, but at least one Mrs. Sharma in our neighborhood, who we have a comparison with on a day to day basis of…umm…anything! Sofas, curtains, imported cutlery, cars, property, ‘that’ latest brand of Air conditioner blah blah blah. The funny part is when we lack having one ‘that’ thing because then it becomes an awwww subject, which forces our poor mom to complain about  this politely yet compulsorily to our poor dad who becomes a mere victim of such economically waste game of “I-have-more-money, honey”. Pheww!!

This is one such story of my home when some years back, one aunty in my neighborhood came just like any other day and started talking about whole colony and then finally coming to that point…the moment when she tells what’s that new thing in their home and of course how much it costs. Well, my mom did not really appreciated washing clothes in washing machine those days, so therefore there was not much need of it at home. But how could Mrs. Sharma not notice that? So, obviously she said in a swankier way how she owns a IFB which is an in-thing and we don’t have even a Videocon. As usual, my dad had to become the victim of such ostentation and he brought home a brand new WM which even after years is lying unused and filling lot of space in the balcony! Guess it’s some kind of pressure that these ladies bear. (Obviously I tried to make understand ladies back home that you shouldn’t really be bothered about such things, but of no use).

So, yes...Marriage! It starts with expensive costumes…that costs huuuugeeeee which is literally of no use save that wedding night…to jewellery-to make-up (now-a-days, as we all go branded so L’Oreal or Lakme experts have taken that job robbing our local beauty parlor aunties) to Dj, orchestra…Not forgetting the big farm house wedding which are based on themes having proper rehearsals for different ceremonies, dishes of different regions, outfits, etc. There’s also a new trend of Palace weddings where old royal places are now used as hotels and resorts where filmstars performs, food is in abundance, high profile people were invited, preparations began before months, dances choreographed, costumes precisely made etc. Lot of food just goes in drain in a country where an average poor still lives in 17 rupees per day, electricity is overused, jamming traffic on the roads without caring for a common man how he might feel who is returning after a day’s hectic work that this wedding means nothing in his life.

And what happens...you wear them, you look good, you sit in the chair pretending to look decent, you become the star of night, you have to behave cultured and worse! You have to eat in the end..!! :(  Gross...It’s my wedding, I want to welcome the baraat, I want to do the Naagin-dance for Dulha..I want to get drunk may be…but all I have to do is sit quiet, allow the paparazzi to see you become a model and be all shy! I see people spending a lot of money they don't have on their wedding day, then spend years fighting over money trying to pay back the money they borrowed as well as other bills. It doesn't seem worth it to me. 

If it was on me and I could have my orders followed, I would not indulge in such grand affair but keep it simple and sober yet interesting in my own very special ways! Whoa... sorry for this... I kind of sound bi-polar about this wedding thing, but it just seem like SO much money!

P.S : I certainly have no plans of marriage or anything of that sort in near future but updates and pictures of people getting married on FB makes me feel this way.