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O God, O God..!

That time has come, again, and I am also doing the same thing like always. Nothings changed even after promising myself last time that I am not gonna be same.

Few days left, just few days, and I am preparing myself for a  kick-start.
This is a time to be a Superman!
Yes, I am gonna be a Superman for the next 3 days!

Countdown begins? eh! Na, not even that much time left.

Just hope to not sleep it away.

Superman ain't need no seat belt, Go Set Go!!
Winter has Come, Baby!

Day 0

So mission one month is : Conquer Green-Tea (GT)

I know, I just know all the benefits of GT, have always been as I am a biologist, who'd know better than me, knowing the metabolism, pathways, ribosomes and chromosomes it does have a role to play with...I have gone to the sub-cellular levels, wouldn't be boasting if I say , to the gene level..but of what use? None

The curt fact is I dont like its taste. I do not like GT. It tastes so bitter, Yuck!

I am an avid tea loverrrrrr, I would never want to replace my beloved tea, one which is made of good amount of milk, sugar, cardamom/basil/ginger etc etc and boiled above heat for long time to extract all the flavors from the pretty tea leaves.

BUT...! Today i.e. 20.01.2016. I take a pledge, to consume at least 2-3 cups of green tea DAILY. You must be wondering why all this so sudden. So, this was the outcome of my 00:45:47 hrs talk with my brother over the phone. He is to come to India in the month of march and he has already started working on his body. (He always wants to come here fit and fine, so he always does this). While I was asking him what all he is doing, food habits, lifestyle, one thing that I was stunned to know about was GT. He has included this in his daily routine like other people there do. My friend here, she also does drink GT every day and man.. she has really lost weight. It's so evident. That too after she's been home and had so many sweets. And look at me when I come back from home, I become a baby panda :(

I play badminton daily, don't eat rice, avoid the potatoes (which are served here in ample amounts in almost all the vegetables and even in biryani  in the mess), cycle, then why this stubborn layer of fat around my stomach wouldn't budge, despite much workout. Sure, sleeping late and munching snacks at midnight is responsible for it.

But, I need a solution.

And I hope, GT would come right to it. Lets see.

I gotta do this as the Winter is Coming!

Convenient

Of insecurities and ego
Of dilemmas and perplex
All that you can do is keep striding holding your head high
It's never easy to keep impressing others
What is more important : to impress yourself

Might sound like old big words from a small mouth
but that's what people do all the time, isn't it?
To blame, to judge, to be obstinate in opinions
To mind your own business is a word from the past

To comprehend how people are jealous and insecure, is an interesting fact
Well, they have  always been
Sure, you are doing something right
Afterall, that's what it comes to my mind..

Inevitable

I see it coming

Slowly but steadily..

I know it's possible

very much, indeed

It's there, somewhere near or perhaps somewhat far, may be

transient

Can't be more than that

I bet

For now, I call it a day..

Before I read out this to myself

The woods are lovely, dark and deep,   

But I have promises to keep,   

And miles to go before I sleep,   

And miles to go before I sleep.

Fish-Feeding Experiment

When I look back and try to connect the dots in the journey of my life so far, I kind of find several links. In the past, if something happened with me, it was for some reason. It always had some purpose and continue to do so. I remember when I first came to KGP for a short duration, I wished to be a part of this campus and then just an year later, I took admission in IIT KGP for my M.Tech. Earlier, in all my initial blog posts I used to crib about not being mature , and now, I think thoda-bohot mature to hum bhi ho gaye hain. (I have also matured a little-bit).

But this is too much. I remember putting a fish tank in my Blog page (I think you can see it even now at the right hand side) 2-3 years back. If you click inside the tank anywhere, all the fish would come towards that point as if that is their feed and whenever you move the cursor to other places, the fishes would move too.

The Last objective of my PhD, I have to do the same experiment. I have to really feed the fishes with CO2 sequestered microalgal-based feed. This is nothing but a sign I consider God had already signaled me but I never realized before. May be many others are still underway.

P.S. I am excited to set up an aquarium tank in the lab, it would be so cool! :)

Moral Policing

In the land of Kamasutra and Khajuraho temple, moral policing strikes a blow.

MORAL POLICING: How less or sufficient should it be done? Should it be exercised at all?

     With the recent ban on pornographic websites in India, blackmailing couples through spurious raids in hotel rooms, willfully catching couples in public parks and on Valentine's day for being together, kissing etc. I wonder where the policing is heading in our country. As a responsible citizen, I do feel policing is right, we should have some limitations. But at the same time, I also feel we, the literate beings, even if watch porn, or kiss and indulge in such things, won't commit rape and things like that. However, the illiterate and the deprived ones are more susceptible to such acts. Therefore, banning such websites might be a solution (I still wonder how). But, what really should be the right way? Radhe maa being sued for wearing short dress in a country where Naga sadhus walk naked during Kumbh mela, Digambar jains don't wear any clothes due to religious reasons, what is the right way of doing things?

I read this article today by Garima Sharma (Member of Central Board of Film Certification) and liked it so thought of sharing it..

Recently, the government lifted a ban on watching pornography after an overwhelming response decrying the move, because what you watch in the privacy of a room, SHOULD be your business not the government’s, right? However, why have we as a nation not addressed the issue of the government blackmailing couples through spurious raids in hotel rooms, when they’re already being harassed by the moral police for kissing?

In a country, where there is no privacy for the young, this kind of easy targeting ruins the balance of sexuality and freedom in an already repressed society. If two consenting adults want to have sex, what right does the government have to SHAME and blackmail them about it, for? Nobody has sex after announcing to the whole world that they are about to, because for a lot of people, including society and the government, it’s a private thing to be indulged in discreetly (or at least that is reasoning we are given about kissing). AFFECTION SHOULD BE PRIVATE. Okay, understood.

However, the deeper question is – how should this privacy be exercised? In the cities, a lot of couples either live with their families in small households without enough privacy to go to the bathroom let alone, get a person of the opposite sex to their home without offending the whole locality and “destroying their family name” by being labelled as someone promiscuous, sleazy, cheap, easy or worst of all (Outrageous GASP!!!) – a sex worker. In a culture where the parent-child relationship is considered sacred, forget having sex, but even making out in the same house as them or even doing it in your own house while they are absent (those who are lucky) would be considered pathologically sickening at its worst or weird at the least.

So what is the other option? “Friend’s house?” Not likely. Not everyone has friends who have empty houses that they rent/lend to friends for sexual enoyment. Aside from downright humiliating and strange this can also be a favour that most people would not like to take from friends in lieu of being blackmailed later. Considering all the list of options, only Marriage (which is a very big life decision that SHOULD never depend on sexual curiosity or experimentation) an anonymous hotel or abstinence (celibacy) remain.

Let’s start with celibacy. Do we really think, in a country with the third largest population, owing to a VERY DEEP gap between sexual education, sexual health and sexual practice we will actually able to stop young people with raging hormones, curiosity and a host of issues about their personality, ambition and identity; from having any sex at all? That’s the worst kind of unrealistic expectation that has caused the population issue in the first place- unrealistic body images and expectations. There is a reason sex is one of our basic needs along with food and shelter.

Coming to the idea of marriage, any RATIONAL, LOGICAL person will understand that marriage is an institution that is SUPPOSED TO legalize monogamy and the domestic securityof individuals who CONSENT to living with each other and sharing legal responsibilities as well as sexual ones. The most important, sacred and holy of all the things next to GOD in this universe for those who believe in such a concept, and even for those who don’t is and SHOULD be CONSENT.

However, in most cases and especially in this country, nothing happens with the consent of the people who are the MOST AFFECTED from decisions. Those in power- the authority figures such as parents for example, usually are the ones who use their unlimited pool of consent as a tool to stamp and approve the sexual union of their children thinking they know what is best for them. Any good statistical study will show you that this is not the case. Like a popular and rather tart message making the rounds since sometime, apply summarizes, “Our parents tell us ‘Never to talk to strangers’ yet ask us to sleep with one after marriage.” Next, come the real challenges of a marriage and the responsibilities that make it the hallowed and sacred union it is supposed to be. Honestly, however, how many of the people in this country can say that their parents’ marriage was perfect or any marriage for that matter is perfect? Like any other relationship, it is not. If marriages were the magic resolution to solving the issue of rapes, unwanted pregnancies, prostitution or adultery by enlightening the heathens, there would be no marital rape (because ANY sex without consent or force is RAPE and a man or woman’s god-given right as a spouse does not make it any less of a moral crime, even if this country refuses to acknowledge it), domestic abuse, extra-marital adultery or prostitution ( you will NOT be surprised to know how many prostitutes have confirmed of servicing married clients).

Now, seeing that we have some of the most hassling options out of the way, what would ideally be the most anonymous, private, safe, guilt-free and fun option of spending some romantic, intimate or sexually-thrilling/ enlightening time with someone we really like, enjoy being with a lot, love or, wish to/are about to marry? A HOTEL ROOM where we respectfully pay for the services of availing some privacy from our family home as well as the undesirability of gossiping aunties, uncles, colonies, friends – you name it (who must have likely done or wanted the same thing when they were young) and as adults get to explore our sexuality/love towards someone, right? WRONG.

Because like every other kind of moral policing that blames “western culture” for harming our nation and corrupting the innocent with short-clothes, Chow Mein, cigarettes and sex, the police uses the all powerful battering ram that is the shaming of society; of the moral narrow mindedness of this country’s citizens -who blame all the ills of society on western culture without ever examining who or what really is causing the deeply inherent problems within our system- to BLACKMAIL, threaten, scare and hurt people who have not harmed anybody while indulging in a perfectly legal act of being with a loved one who is an ADULT and who has CONSENTED to the intimacy. These people, are often targeted under the pretext of “raids” and “disruption of sexual nexus’ involving sex-trafficking” which effectively silence all pleas and protestations of a person’s fundamental rights. Such fun, no?

As a person researching and working with NGO’s regarding real-life sex trafficking, let me tell you, the authorities who conduct raids on lover-bird hotels are the least likely to ever nab any real sex offenders. Harassing common people is their easiest way of extracting money or proving their usefulness in the force by conducting arbitrary “checks” which are nothing but an abuse of authority. Instead of a crack down on real rape-related issues, these authorities imply the horrifically flawed logic that any unmarried woman having sex is a prostitute and therefore must be punished (because prostitutes are not, human beings, right?)

Okay so you’re not yet going to a hotel to have some privacy and sex? Even then, this constant threat of looming authorities and moral garbage will haunt you, if you are one of the countless young couples or even group of friends who travel together around India, you will still be questioned about the status of your relationship as if you are committing a crime because of “out of wedlock travelling”.

The recently released film, Masaan highlights this excellent, corrupt and ruthless wolf-of –authority-in-sheep’s-clothing phenomenon, along with another film -Gulcharrey that some friends of my mine (Anubhav Syal , Varun Tandon , Amitesh Mukherjee ) made straight out of college, addressing this issue realistically. It is ironical how proud we feel of Masaan winning international Awards across the world, but wilfully ignore what it is trying to say about our cultural hypocrisy.

Personally I think, everybody young in this country is under the threat of this kind of moral bludgeoning, with the government and authorities stigmatizing our sexuality, our judgement as well as shaming our parents into repressing another generation of young people into thinking that sex between individuals of consenting age is bad, when it is not. Sexual abstinence will never happen and stigmatizing the issue with this kind of ridiculous reasoning and empathetic-bankruptcy will not lead to any kind of solution.

Though many people say that the youth are empowered, I don’t see that happening. Does having power or being a good person only mean something when you are a saint/monk practicing celibacy or making friends and falling in love with the consent of your parents? Isn’t coming of age hard enough, with suicidal and depressed teens always lurking in the background, with this added atrocity making well-adjusted young people also wanting to end their lives? This is unfortunate and criminal on a whole another level.

India is a country with the highest number of young people. We claim to be the largest well-functioning democracy. We push for young leaders who will change the way the world looks and imagines reality, but in truth we want the youth of this country to do all of it without their human needs and flaws (perhaps, they same we like our Gandhi and Gods to be). We want them to be sexless or authority (parent/state) abiding citizens who place God and some weird kind of “cultural” paradigm before engaging in the most natural, legal and basic of all human needs.

We might as well cut off the genitals of the unmarried young in this nation. Perhaps that will resolve all this country’s problems like MARRIAGE, INDIAN CULTURE and GOD have.

There are the bigger crimes in our world which everyone knows of and condemns, but these indignities, these psychological traumas like sexism, discrimination and humiliation are the smaller bricks that lay the foundation of injustice. You may think that you will never be a victim -that is what everyone thinks to comfort themselves, but let me tell you that if it is affecting this nation, affecting our world, it is affecting you and someday, you will too stand face to face with the burden of these smaller injustices or crimes as I call them.

From the archives

So careless and laid back I am. As I was scrolling down through the memory of my past adventures and fun trips, I could remember my trip to London. So, It was my first international trip therefore I was excited. I was going with a friend for a summer school in UK. Our flight was at 6:30 in the morning, so we called a taxi at 3:30 am as it used to take just an hour from our hostel to the Bangalore airport. Since we had to do the immigration and all, so we kept 2 hours for all that. As my close ones would know me, I don't do things initially but you will find me running unto everything at the eleventh hour. So the other friend had packed everything, talked to everyone and done all the things that one needs to do a day before. And here I was , till 1:30 am of that morning, packing my stuffs, forget about talking to anyone.  I slept at 2 am, planning to get up maximum by 3 so that in half n hour I would take bath and get ready before my taxi arrives.

I asked my friend to call me at 3 am, so that in worst case, if my alarm clock fails to wake me up, her call would definitely do that. I asked her to give me a ring and instead ring the door bell of my room , even though her room was just two rooms away from my room. The pact was if I disconnect her call, it will be a signal to her that I have woken up.

So, the clock ticked 3. As I had slept for just an hour.  I am quite famous to have a 8 hour long sleep), so my alarm failed to wake me. My friend called me and in the pleasures of my "deep sleep" I disconnected her call without realizing it. In parallel, my friend took a head bath, straightened her hair and had breakfast that she cooked and sipped coffee . It was 3:30 and the cab arrived. I was still sleeping. :-|

At 3:40 am, my door bell rang, I did not answer. After 3-4 times, I heard something and woke up. After 4-5 seconds I realized what I am into. I opened the door, saw her all decked up..and I could only say, Shit, Shit..shitshitshitshit..shiiiiiit innumerable times. My friend and others who had come to see us off got worried. I still had some packing left for some small-small things. Thanks to my friends, they picked up everything from everywhere and just buried in my bag. I could not do much. Just brushed my teeth, don a t-shirt and started for airport. Very little time was left, so we asked the driver to scurry. Thanks heavens, we could catch the flight.

Phew!

P.S: My hard drive crashed, so the 2500 pics I had of that trip, went by that too. Sad moment. :(