At Midnight

Sometimes you like being alone,
Sometimes you like being hurt
Sometimes You like the pain..
It is such a real feeling, A

Loving the silence, the darkness of my room
Loving being alone right now
and listening to nothing but me
Its such a real feeling

With noodles and coffee as my dinner
and some half left notes
and tomorrow's plan of work ready
I feel so light standing on the cliff...
After all, its such a real feeling

and I only remember this..
Its a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life...

Farewell

Married monsters!

It seems everyone is getting married these days and if you ask me honestly I have no problem with it but I do share my disgust with particular kinds. These are people who forget their individuality, their personality as if it never existed or they have got incarnated..so much into this  marriage stuff. 

Their talks, their pics, their FB profile everything stinks of obsession, obsession with marriage. They stop calling you, then they stop picking up your call, they only appear in-two's or may be three's everywhere. I mean once my friend brought her kid into the mall, and I was like, what-to-do or how to behave now. All my  three best friends have got married, two are also having kids :D 

Decisions

Fuck! I am so stuck.

Don’t know what to do.

What to choose and what to leave behind.

In any case, I’ll be feeling bad afterwards..

Can I have my Krishna here?

'Carrie' me along

I love Carrie Bradshaw from “sex and the city”.
She is the woman of substance. I hope her; Sarah Jessica Parker, in real life too is same as my Carrie. I love her lifestyle, her lucid writings, her dressing sense, her way of dealing things, no matter how stupid they were. I love the way she used to come to a conclusion, the storytelling she used to do was brilliant. She’s got some amazing friends which I truly admire, for they are genuine people. When I see them, it feels I’m one of them. I know one person she truly loved was Mr. Big. He liked her too but I don’t know what his problem was. May be he was commitment phobic. Now-a-days everyone is. In a way it is good, making no commitment is better than a fake commitment. I love the Manhattan streets, it feels I have already done a visual course through the series many times, but I would love to go there sometime, sit in the same Chinese restaurant or the same breakfast joint where these ladies used to go. Hope they are all the same. It was her Birthday on 26th March, and mine a day later, feels good to know about that too.

Quoting a dialogue by Carrie:

"The most important thing in life is your family. There are days you love them and others you don’t, but in the end they’re the people you always come home to. Sometimes it’s the family you’re born into. And sometimes it’s the one you make for yourself."

Bad Choice

What is wrong with Ms. Padukone? After her show with the cleavage drama she’s back with the pseudo-women empowerment stint. Somebody please tell her to first go home, finish schooling and then come back, seems sh's drunk the entire time. It also seems she lacks basic sense in everything. Maybe she’s become too attention seeker. No doubt, her films aren’t doing well. But what was that, literally? My Choice? Really!

Would opening your bra strap makes you empower? Would having sex pre or post marriage empower you? If that does, then I am sorry, you need to take some medication.  One need to know first, who actually needs empowerment in this country? Not those women who are in dilemma to have sex or not, but those who are crushed to have an opinion in a joint family or those who don’t have a say if their family wants her to abort the girl child and only have a boy child. It’s those people. I am sure there are lot bigger issues than thinking of loving someone or lusting forever. I used to dislike Sonakshi Sinha earlier, but damn, at least she has better mind than you. Learn from her, it’s never too late.

Unfortunately, there are still people especially women, who felt so empowered watching that video for reasons unknown to me. Just imagine, if men stop acting when you say you hate their beer belly or you want to have a gold jewelry, what if they also start having sex post-marital saying it is his choice, or what would you say to a man who refuses to marry because you had a consensual sex with him with a thought that he would marry, but now he has made his CHOICE, and now you file a rape case against him? Would you give him the same privilege? No! I am sure NO! Why, because there are so many pseudo- feminist existing in this country who will cry every time for equality and women empowerment but when it comes to having real equality among beings, they shudder!

Being a woman, I also seek empowerment for all those who needs it, like Sonakshi said: we are living a luxurious life; it should go to the deep ends of the society. But, I am also pretty clear that empowerment doesn't mean that you are above the rest.  It means you are equal with everyone else. In this case, Men & Women. Not only the video was hostile, but also sadly ineffective. I do understand that Ms. Padukone must have had good intentions before doing this video, but she should shape her thoughts prior and consult at least ten people before publishing her thoughts.

Let the equality and empowerment prevail!
Hope no one is suppressed and everyone has right to love their life freely.

Daejeon, South Korea!

I am so happyyy!!!   

Finally I ' m back after an exhilarating trip to Daejeon, South Korea. It took few months to finalize everything and give it a Go! Usually if your trip is official, in my case academic, you have to do many formalities like applying for funding to different Govt.agencies, booking everything, fixing up your accommodation and etc. Thankfully, I got it all done on time. The only thing remaining till my day of departure was my poster which was not complete :P Usually if its an academic tour, it eventually turns out to be a recreational one because you don't have a check on you to attend all the sessions and prepare a report or something. This is funny but I just got reminded of the two great people who came from Reliance Industries from India, and how for them it was mandatory to attend all the sessions during the conference as they had to prepare some descriptive report or something. I on the other hand had all the freedom to utilize my time elsewhere and I left no stone unturned.  After I landed in Delhi from kolkata, i had an eleven hours of halt at Delhi so it was great time to be at home and start the further journey from there. It was little cold, colder than Bengal in Delhi and as my senior told me it was much colder in Korea, so I had to take along with me warm clothes. Like every time, as I do all the things at eleventh hour, I did this too running here and there.  Please don't blame me for being a Procrastinator. You know what, I love doing it this way, it gives me adrenaline rush. So 12:30 am I had my flight to Seoul. I reached easily and it was pretty good time for me as it was not my first international journey, so I was pretty much okay with everything. 

Upon reaching Seoul, I had to take this Bus to Daejeon. It took almost 2.5 hrs for me to reach Govt.Complex stop where my senior came to pick me up. I was so happy to see him as he was the only one who arranged everything for me there and my trip turned out to be just amazing. I give all credits to him. So from there, he took me to his flat where we had dinner and had long talks after which he dropped me to my hotel. The hotel had everything for me so I was perfect in there. The next day conference started and it was good. Met some great scientist whose research articles I read or refer everytime and seeing them in front of my eyes was one great moment. For that  matter, my senior is also my one inspiration as I have read all his papers and he doesn't even know I have a older of his initials in my desktop where I have saved all his publications and refer to them every time I need to. The conference was great, I was the junior most there and therefore enjoyed all the care and support from everyone ;P We went from the conference to see places and clicked so many pics. I met Prof. Pramod K Wangikar from IIT Bombay and we went out, he is such a cool prof. So different yet he is doing amazing research. He was just one youngster among us and we never felt as he is some orthodox prof. Listening to Michael Borowitzka, John Benemann, Yusuf Chisti and other great scientists in front of you, whom you follow religiously is like  dream come true. 

Koreans are humble people, very helping and so cultured. 

And the Korean Girls!!!! My god. They are so pretty, though they use make up but they take care of their health, are fitness freak and intelligent. I then visited my seniors institute KAIST where he is the post doc, the labs were sooooo good. I wish I work somewhere like this sometime. They use LED based air-lift reactors for algal growth and use SIGMA chemicals only. Isn't it obvious? hmm.. 

It was so cold there, I had to wear layers of clothes but for nice pictures, I dont mind shedding few :D

The Best Best thing was I got the Best Poster Award among hundreds of other people, so this is also one of the reason to be super happy. The last day we went out totally, did shopping, lunch in an Indian restaurant called Bukhara and again shopping, and so many other things. All in all, I had one amazing time there.